Check my wake!

This one was before I got it really down and was going for a while. I crossed over the wake and I wasn't sure what to do! Lol and yeah I scream before I fall..pretty much everytime

This time I biffed it hard core. It hurt sooo bad. It felt like I popped my boob and cracked a couple ribs. Oh man did it hurt! My scream is pretty sad though lol

thx,ally

Dang Jobs..

I hate this job search. You'd think that people who are so keen about being professional would at least call you to tell you status of the position you applied for! Its ridiculous. Why is it so dang hard to get a job? I should have gotten that last job. I had very good experience.. I'm just a tad frustrated.

This journey is not easy at all, but I have learned a lot on my own and love it. I do hope to have that perfect job and support myself and only myself. Get a car and an apartment. Thats the only goal I am working towards, besides losing weight. Which by the way I have lost 9 pounds!! Woot! Thank you Hydroxycut and calorie counting! I found my muse for losing weight!

thx,ally

My Fathers Day

Happy Fathers Day.
Happy Fathers Day Dad. Everyone has told me that I am just like you, and I am so proud of that. I look up to you in so many ways. You have taught me so much with out even teaching me. While mom and I fought it out and argued, you stood by to listen and watch, making sure things are under control. You never judged me and you always listened with your heart. Everything I told you, I knew I could tell you because I trust you. Once when I wanted to look at other churches, you never chastised me or told me No. You listened and I was able to pour my heart out and knew I wouldn't get in trouble. You have been the peacemaker in this family and has always wanted whats best for us. You want us to only be happy and to make sure our hopes and dreams come true. Thank you dad for being a great dad, and making me the person I am today. Love you.

Other fathers in my life.
To all the other fathers in my life. My brother, Tyler. You were the first father I knew besides dad. Everything I know about fathering, I have learned from you. Your children have turned into amazing kids and I know its because of you and Eileen. I hope that the father of my children knows as much as you. We have been so close in our lives. Everything you have been through and how strong you are with it all makes me look up to you. I am honored to call you my brother. Love you bro.

Grandpa Sessions. First off, I miss you. My mom misses you. You are an amazing person. You have showed me a lot your last years on this earth. I remember watching you with grandma while she was sick and you call her "My Love" every time you talked to her. You loved grandma so much. You made me realize that I wanted a marriage just like yours. You cherished grandma and loved her so much. I cried and cried, knowing you were dancing with grandma again and kissing her and hugging her. Thank you for everything.

Grandpa Jensen. I was so little when you died so I never had the chance to remember you. I know you were a great grandpa though. I wish I could have the chance to know you, and see you along side my dad. I'm sure you would have taught me a lot though. I can't wait to meet you.

thx, allyj

Here I am.

here i am.
All right, here I am. A new person and a new start. I have no idea where to start or where to begin. What steps to take and which direction. I have a new sense of beginning and I am taking advantage of it. I have grown this motivation to fulfill things I never thought I could do. But the world is my oyster now and it makes me smile. I am here to achieve happiness, thus I have been lacking.

my purpose.
My purpose is to find my ultimate happiness. Never judge. Always laugh. Shed some tears. And above all, Love.

special thanks.
I give a special thanks to those who love me and who have loved me. You have been my rock and support. I dont know how I could have made it with out you. The One who helped me grow my back bone and face my fear. The One who loved me no matter what happens and is always there for me, who I can turn to for anything in my life. The One who holds it all together and keeps me on track, making sure I make the right decision. The One who is going through this with me, fighting until we are happy and fulfilling our ultimate hopes and dreams. You guys make my smile, smile.

tag along.
I hope you guys can come along this long path my life has rapidly taken with laughs and tears and a little love a long the way. Thank you much.

My surgery

Hey Dudes!! Sorry it's been forever! A lot has happened since I last posted. Lets see what I can tell you..

I lost my job. I don't know if I was fired or if I was laid off. They never specified. But I had no idea it was my last day. After that, I got really depressed. I didn't eat much. I didn't want to leave the house. I didn't want to be around anyone. I didn't want to do anything. Just sit at home and watch tv and sleep. Pretty pathetic.

I had surgery on Thursday, February 25th. It was the weirdest experience of my life!! I went to the hospital by myself, which I totally regret! I was freaking out all by myself, waiting for them to call my name. I got one of those wrist band things..

This was taken in the waiting room, where there were like a million people waiting. So I was called back and got my hospital clothes on, and I didn't know they had hospital shorts that you wear with the gown! It was nice. So I'm sitting there, talking to the lady who puts my IV in and I'm telling her I'm freaking out about the IV. I hate needles and all that stuff. I lived through it though. So don't worry. It was still really weird. So then the anesthesiologist came to put me out. As they were wheeling me to the OR, he was saying "We gave her the party drink!" It was funny. I don't remember going to the OR, I remember being in the room. It was freezing and I saw those big circle lights. Then I was out. Don't remember anything after that.

Waking up was the worst part for me. I was so uncomfortable and I was crying. All I wanted was to lay on my side but they wouldn't let me. I kept asking for Mike and they said they called him but he was working. But Mike told me that they said to wait to come. I was mad about that. I wanted him there when I woke up. Really stupid. I was just laying there, half awake. I thought I was just laying there for like 10 minutes but it was almost an hour. It was so crazy how long I laid there. The surgery took about 2 hours. So I was at the hospital for a total of about 6 and a half hours. I got to have a wonderful nose brace thing. Cass calls it a nose bra. Here is what I looked like with it on!

 

I look like poo, but I was on drugs and super sleepy. Before I got out of the bed at the hospital, the nurse said to hold my gauze up to my nose because the blood that was supposed to come out was pooling up and when I stood up, it will all come out. Well I stood up and forgot about the gauze immediately. I felt my nose run, thinking it was just snot. No. It was blood. A lot of blood. Good thing only Mike was there. I got to ride in a wheel chair out to the car. We got home and Mikes parents got us dinner. Thank you so much!! Since Mike gets every other Friday off, he got to stay home with me all day! Waiting on me. Thank you Mike. You're so great and such a peach. I love you and I love that you are doing anything you can for me.

For the past 2 days, I was craving those Hostess Cupcakes. I think I ate like 12 of them. I haven't been able to taste it, thats the only down fall of it all. Mikes grandma brought us dinner last night, Saturday night. It was soooo good! Chicken noodle soup with bread sticks and salad! With brownies and oreos for dessert! Delish! Thank you Grandma, Sarah, Anne and Grace!! Last night was able to breathe through my nose! And this morning I tasted my yogurt while I was eating it. It was great. Well I took my pills like half an hour ago so I'll be getting super tired pretty soon here. I'll end it now.. Have a great day!

The Lovely Bones

I got to watch this movie tonight. It was a very different movie, but I loved it. It's one of those movies that grabs you by the shirt and holds you up while its screaming what life is all about in your face. My eyes have been opened by just this one little movie. I may get over it someday, but not right now. Right now, I feel so ashamed to have lived a life that is close to nothing. I haven't done much and I would like to. You never know when something might happen. I love this movie. I have a couple quotes that I want to share. They are beautiful.

“Nothing is ever certain.”
“He wore his innocence like a comfortable old coat.”
“How to commit the perfect murder was an old game in heaven. I always chose the icicle: the weapon melts away.”
“Murder had a blood red door on the other side of which was everything unimaginable to everyone.”
* “I had rescued the moment by using my camera and in that way had found how to stop time and hold it. No one could take that image away from me because I owned it.” *
"I was slipping away, that's what it felt like, life was leaving me, but I wasn't afraid; then I remembered: "There was something I was meant to do; somewhere I was meant to be."
"I wasn't lost, or frozen, or gone... I was alive; I was alive in my own perfect world."


And this one is my favorite..
"If I had but an hour of love, If that be all that is given me, An hour of love upon this earth, I would give my love to thee."


The one with stars by it is one of my favorites too. This movie just opened my eyes. I suggest you watch it. It's weird at some points it makes the movie beautiful.

GUYS!!

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Thanks, Ally.

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